Haven't blogged for so long.  I'm happy that my bestfriend Walter is now assigned in Cebu from his Convergys job in Manila.  We get to meet on Saturdays so I'm happy that I have a new companion for my free days.  Life won't be that much lonely anymore.  My cousin Achie Anna May who's a year older than I am will be getting married this December 31 so we will be taking a trip to Manila for her wedding.  She told me that I was going to have an important part sa wedding niya.  Ano kaya yun?  Haven't seen this cousin of mine for almost 6 years na.

Thanks peeps for your tags and your visits.  I'm surprised about Vanessa's tag.  It's nice to know that you still visit Van and still care to tag.  Tag more often kay I really miss the comments and opinions of people, especially that of yours.  Take care peeps!  Have a nice weekend with family.

I'm so happy today. Lexmark Management gave me an award for my exemplary performance for the first half of my OJT program. They also assigned me to instruct the new OJT applicants with regards to most of the processes and test we do in the office. I'm so happy jud. There's a lot to smile about. I hope this continues. I was also able to hang out with friends like Pancit, NatNat and Jimmy James this afternoon. I loved their company and it was fun hanging out with them at SM and EMall. I hope days like these will continue so that my face could also enjoy putting up a smile... something which has been denied of it for the past few weeks. hehehehe =) =) =)

Just came from Jedrick's bday party. It was fun, we played billiards after having dinner at Big Mao. I'm trying desperately to keep busy. And at times, I still do think of her. We stopped communicating na since her parents asked us to minimize texting and seeing each other. Haven't seen her almost half a month and we don't text anymore. =( *sigh. Is there any remedy to this? I'm losing her as a friend also this way.

All my projects are now complete. One more exam for tomorrow at 12:30 and the semester is FINALLY over. One semester to go and graduate NA JUD! Can't wait to be out of school na! School's eating me up. Waste of my precious time here on earth!

*sigh... I'm still thinking about her. Though how much I pretend that I'm OK, I know deep inside I am not. I wanna see her and hear her voice at least, because I really... really... miss her. I wanna text her or call her at home, but... I'm afraid to do so. I know man gud that communicating with her is not good because of what her parents want for her... and maybe because she doesn't want that too for herself. *sigh. It's tough to be in this position where you want to do nice things for your special someone, but you just can't because of the dictates of the reality of the situation. Maybe it would be better to hope na lang if she'd call or even have a conversation with me over text because if I were to initiate it, I don't know what she might have to say or what her parents might have to say again.

Maybe things are back to normal on her side, but how I wish I could say the same about me. When will things be right once more? I was happy when I was with her. I never expected things to go in this direction because I gave it the best I could to be the best boyfriend to her. I know that perhaps she still does like me. or does she? I dunno. I still like her very much, but sometimes I just repress my feelings so as not to complicate things. Do you peeps think repressing these feelings is the right thing to do? *sigh. One month na sana kami yesterday, BUT... hehehe Ok I'm boring you peeps na. Sorry. Till the next post.

It's too early for a Christmas theme and honestly, I don't feel the spirit of the season.

There's no better tranquilizer in this world than KEEPING BUSY. I've been really busy for the past few days with all the projects I had to accomplish before this final week ends. 2 more projects to go and they'll be completed by tomorrow... hopefully. No more exams for me and so I'll be free starting Thursday afternoon right after our project chacking. Yipee! Sembreak na.

I'll be also busy during sembreak to help in the construction of our new restaurant at St. Patrick's Square just behind STC. From design to construction itself, I'll be seeing through it all so that this store would conform to what I envisioned it to be. If I have to pour cement and put the tiles on the floor or if I have to saw pieces of wood or metal, then so be it. I just don't want to be bored this sembreak, because I realized that whenever I'm idle, all I think of is her and I know it's not good for me.

I'll be back to my gym workout days. Since it's sembreak, it would be a nice time to catch up on my weights again. It starts this Saturday morning. I hope I could get myself a gym partner this time. Maybe I'll get to meet my gym pals again... that's if they still do their regular workouts. hehehe. Till here. I've been sleeping as early as 8 nowadays and waking up at 7 just to free myself from being tricked by my mind by always thinking negative and ending up depressed. *sigh! This morning, we had a closed-door meeting at Lexmark to discuss the new project we'll be working on. My boss is counting a lot from me this time since she was impressed by my performance during the last project I worked on. Hopefully, shy could recommend me to become a regular employee once I apply for a regular post after I graduate. hehehe. Till here peeps and I'm planning to change my template again. Any ideas? Feel free to suggest.

Finals week here we come. Good luck peeps to you exams. As to me, I accomplished much yesterday. Was able to finish 2 projects in one sitting. One more to go and 2 exams more and I'm free!!! Finally this hell of a semester is nearing its death. hehehehe I'm getting bored already with what's happening in my life. I have so many things to do, but I just can't focus enough to make myself do them. So I'm just trying to count sheep while waiting for time to pass me by. As to her, her parents are putting pressure on her and her brother is also scolding her because of the thing we have for each other. I'm not sure what they are against: Are they against ME or against the thought of her having a boyfriend? NADA! I don't want to think of it anymore. I hope my mind can somehow stop running, because it's been accustomed already to always thinking about her. This has to stop eventually. How do you stop your mind from thinking of the person you love? How do you slow down your heart from beating itself just for her? How do you do all that while still hoping that someday it will turn out to be worthwhile?

Funny how events go up and down. I wonder if I should be posting events too soon into my blogsite because it will only confuse you my dear readers just as it confuses me.

We decided to meet last night. She picked me up from school at around 7. When I stepped into her Vitara, I was silent. I felt and ice wall was in between us with the radio waves pounding hard in my eardrums. And then she asked me where we were to go and I told her "Ahmbot. Ikaw gusto makig-kita" I can laugh now at how sour I was hahahaha! And then she tells me that I am "pala-away" because it was really mean of me to say that. She then told me that instead of going somewhere, she'll drop me off to my house na lang since she sensed I was in a bad mood. But I said no to that. And so she just drove. I then loosened up and made peace to her by asking her how her day was at the ofice and from that question, we managed to break the ice. She admitted to me that it was "kiwaw" from the start, but she was glad we broke the ice. We talked at the roofdeck of Off-Road near Kartzone. She decided on the place and it was a good choice. Nothing but open air and cars passing by below. We talked and we clarified things. She did love me and the only problem was the timing. I think that is fair enough a reason... I guess. Life goes on and we are closer friends than ever. I'm her best guy friend and she's my best girl friend. We are more free to accomplish our other responsibilities to family, work and school. She just asked me for time for her to mature. And I think I havfe no problem with that. Forcing the issue that we continue even if she's not yet mature enough will just lead to more problems. And she tld me that when the right time comes, she will be knocking on my door even if maulaw cya. And I told her not to be afraid of doing that when the right time comes. While sipping our drinks and feeding her the Choco mint cake, she gave me one of her hairbands... the one with the beads forming a star. She gave it to me because she wanted me to have it. Her reason: She gave it to me because I kept on playing with it when she wore it around her wrist while watching "The Notebook" with me last Saturday. And for her, she had lots of fun with me while watching our first movie as a couple. hehehe. And so she wanted me to keep it as a remembrance of that very happy moment. I told her I will keep it and hopefully someday, I could return it to her when she asks it from me soon.

Not bad right? And when I reached home, we had mooncake festival for around 2 hours. Won 2 Chirstmas canisters, 3 packs of juice and 2 ballpens. And then as I started to hit the sack at 10:30, we got to texting and texted till 12:30 AM. I think I'm happy with how things went for us. I just have to because love is all about me seeking her happiness whether her happiness includes me or not. I'm such a sucker for love.

So I guess that's the end of Volume One. Romance continues.... hopefully continues... at some later time.

It's an official break.  I won't be posting anymore about us, because to start off there's no more an "US" anymore.  We broke up last night because she said she's not mature enough to have a relationship and that she's not comfortable of having a boyfriend yet.  She said that we had to break up because she's not ready yet and it would just be a waste of my effort.  She said she couldn't breathe anymore (I still dunno why because I've never restricted her in any way.)  She also got turned off with the fact that I went to visit their house to talk to her parents.  I still don't think what I did was wrong because it is important that her parents know who's her boyfriend.  To her it was wrong, so I really can't change the way she viewed it.  I'm taking it really hard, but life must go on.... one aching day at a time till the Lord takes this pain away.  Tonight, she invited me to have dinner with her (just the two of us) as her friend because today marks her first day as a regular employee of Banco de Oro.  It pains me to see her because she will just remind me of the break up, but I am her bestfriend too, so I have to be there to share in her joy.  *sigh.

"Love is about being happy for someone even if their happiness does not include you."